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Attack by ANTS!!

2007-12-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

Eeeek!! Hate it!!

My house is under attack by the ANTS! So many of them, really wonder where they came from. So pissed to see them inavde my food, my kitchen, my living room, my sofa, my bedroom... bascially the whole of my house.

Go away ants! Don't make me kill you. I hate the feeling of killing you guys. :(

Anyone can help get rid of them?? Desperately need help!!

The irony of love

2007-09-10T17:06:00.001+08:00

Met up for lunch with long time good friend last week. Had a long long chat... We talk about many things, and it led me to think about the word "LOVE".

Love can be ironic. Phones calls, words of concerns, hugs and touches are all so welcoming at the initial lovely dovey stage. However, as time goes by, these seemingly welcoming gestures may inturn becomes much of an irritation. How is that possible? Where has the feeling of love went to?

As the euphoria of love fades, couples need to work together to maintain a relationship. It is often taken for granted that love is self sustaining. Sad to say, it does not happen in reality. Love does not last naturally. Both parties have to nurture and grow their own fruit of labour.

Nurturing the love fruit is not easy. It takes time, patience, courage, communication and alot more to nourish it. It is often easier to choose the easy way out i.e. escaping and ignoring. It is definitely not the wisest choice but many are falling prey to it.

Hope all is well for you, my good friend

JJ

I'm so so elated!!

2007-09-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

Ryan finally utter out the word Ma Ma. I'm really so happy. No words can describe the amount of excitment and happiness I felt when I heard him calling me as Ma Ma.

So so happy!!!

I'm to my limit!!

2007-07-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

Really wonder how some can do it. Definitely not for me!!

It's such a awful feeling, not only for me, but I believe for you as well. There's no meaning to it.

Confront if you dare instead of sneaking behind.

I'm really to my limit!!

Ryan first few steps!!

2007-05-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

Yippee!! Ryan knows how to walk. And he is so happy about it, always beaming with a smile, revealing his 4 front teeths

Started off with just a step or two, he got bolder and attempted more steps forward. And when he realised he succeeded, he was beamng with joy, clapping his hands!

Now waiting for the day when he utter the word "Ma Ma".

So excited, so happy and so glad to see him growing up.

Loving him with all I have
JJ

Back to School!

2007-05-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

Once again, I have resume being a student. Difference this time is I will have to be skilled like a clown,juggling between a full time job and being a Mom.

Thought about it for quite awhile and finally pluck up my courage. It is going to be be tough, especially so for the fee issue, but I believe I can do it.

Wish me luck!!

Reality hurts

2007-05-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it really doesn't pay to be kind. When you thought you are being helpful and nice, the worst thing that can happen is when you realise the very person you are helping is not genuine. The pictures have become clearer and clearer.

Welcome to the world of reality.

I am sad, but what can I do? I figure out there is nothing much I can really do except to be careful as to who I am helping next time. It is certainly not a nice feeling. Its awkward, having to face the person. I feel uncomfortable and have a sudden urge to dump aside everything and leave. As times goes by, more issue starts to surface and I figure I cannot go on as if nothing has happen.

Guess I have only myself to blame. If I was more alert, I would not have been hurt.

Hope I can figure a way out and not hide from it.

JJ

2007-01-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

I have finally moved! Shifted 1 week ago, it was so so tiring. My bones are breaking. the aftermatch: Continuous unpacking!! Scary. But what to do?

Been going home after work to clear off the stuff bit by bit. Slow but I'm glad it is moving. Will definitely be able to clear things before new year :)

To all who is reading the blog, just in case if u felt that I am suddenly engaged in a MIA game, there is something strange about my phone. on and off, it kinda miss out on messgaes and phone calls. Hmmm.. wonder if it is a sign that I should replace it? LoL.... probably I should go check out when my contracts expire.

Been wanting to do a lot of stuff, which I have not been able to.

1) Holiday - I realy really need a break!! feeling so burned out and lethargic

2) More time for Ryan. Feels that I have miss out on a huge portion of his life, miss out on his growing up, so much so that everytime when I think of it, I felt so sad and feel like crying. :( Everytime when I see him, I was like "wah, grow so much le". I did not have the chance to witness the every little details and stages of his growth and development. It is like watching a fast forwarded video everytime. And I am really really upset about it.

3) Job - Been thinking if it is time for me to move on However, alot of things is bugging me. the most being the salary issue. Wonder if I am able to find a job that pays adequately. Have been quite discourage as usually most job requires degree, which leads me to the next issue - Studies (shall talk about in awhile) Just gotta knwo that my colleagues are much much better paid than I am, although we may be doing the same stuff. In case you are wondering, I found out by accident and the difference in terms ofmonetary wise is really alot. Felt so demoralised. How much I am worth to my team and does effort and results really equates to rewards? Guess world is not really fair. Know that all the while but seems like this time is it more "real". Sigh.... $$ is always a senstive issue.

4) Studies - Should i get a degree? but the biggest obstacle for me will be the fee issue. Another sigh....

Signing off
JJ

Farewell Grandma

2006-09-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

I love you Grandma, love you lots...

I really hate to say goodbye
Cant bear to let go

There are many regrets, many...
Many I should have
Many I should not have

Precious memories, flashbacks, thoughts
Flooding and crowding my mind

My eyes are tired, so i my body
My heart is tearing and wrenching

Picking myself up

Learning to let go

Do not woory about us Grandma
We will learn
We will take care of ourselves

I know you will find happiness in heaven
Reuniting with those whom you missed dearly

I really love you so much Grandma...
But I know have to be strong
To bid you farewell
I know you will want us to live well

Missing you...

~ Finally a place of our own ~

2006-08-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

I'm really happy that we managed to have a place of our own. Yes, I finally bought a flat.

No doubt we will need to really tighten our pocket, but I believe its all worth it. It will be tough, especially with little Ryan, but with budget planning, it will work out well.

Our new home will be at Hougang, a place which I never thought that I will be moving too. It is a door to door unit on the 2nd level. Though I would prefer to be on a higher storey, I would need to consider our budget and work within it as higher storey equates to higher price. However, the proximity to amenties and MRT & bus interchange makes up for it. I also like the fact that it is near to my aunt's place, where she is helping to take care of little Ryan. One thing good is that the house doesn't need much reno except for some minor repair work and refurnishing.

Looking forward to moving to our new home,

Jing

Precious Moments

2006-08-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

Zzz away...

One of his fav pose

2006-08-10T11:17:00.000+08:00

Looking at Ryan, it really dawns on me how amazingly fast a baby grows. It seems that a day makes a great difference.

Recalling back, few weeks ago, he fitted just perfectly on my thigh. Now, he has overgrown that. Times really flies, and with Ryan, it seems to be on the double or even more.

Though its really busy with the arrival of Ryan, its also the most fulfilling moment of my life. Amidst all the painful and frustrated night of waking up, cyring spell and blah blah blah, its all worth it. Seeing him smile, and all the frustration soon melts away. His comical moments, his amusing actions, brings to us unspeakable joy and laughter. Seeing him growing each day, its really wonderful.

Finally now I truely understand how a parent will feel for their child.

Nurturing a New Interest

2006-07-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

I have been observing and thinking about it for quite awhile. Reading through my cousin blog further reaffirmed what I have concluded - My English is really bad and my vocab and conversational skill is deterioting!!

Its really time for me to wake up and do something about it. It has always been something that is bothering me and I felt that its getting worse by the days. Its alarming how I can forget simple vocab and words and speaking "weird" sounding sentences.

I'm a self confessed NON book lover. Really wish that I could pick up the habit of reading in the hope of improving my English.

Working towards nuturing my new self enforced interest,

Jing

~Counting Down~

2006-07-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm... time really flies. It's so fast without me even realising it. In less than a month's time I'm gonna be back at work. Hasn't really gotten down to doing anything yet... Will feel really upset for not being to be Ryan when my leave ends. ~Sigh~

Am counting down to 14th Aug... ... ...

~Our Little King, Ryan~

2006-06-05T11:31:00.000+08:00

Ryan's very first shot!!!

Where is the sense of responsibility?

2006-04-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

Came across an article on ST Forum 'Can insurer wash its hands of errant client?' published on April 5, 2006. The reader had responded to a previous article 'Insurer had no choice but to repudiate liabilities' which was published on April 3, 2006.

I was kinda apalled and amazed at the lack of repsonsibility and accountability that prevails in some people. It is a very basic understanding that for a Insurance company to process a claim, claimant should provide the necessary documents, in the case, which is a police report. We cannot just blindly bend the rule for a simple fact that the insured party refused to make the ncessary accident report. Its simply an act of sheer unreasonableness not to do so and expect the company to process your payout.

Quoted from the article 'insurance policy was in force at the time of the accident and therefore the Insurance Company should be responsible for any claims made on that policy, irrespective of whether its insured has followed the company's procedures' (I have on purpose left out the name of the insurance company) **Shake Head** Then what is the point of having procedures in the first place? Procedures have been set in place for a reason.

Although I believe the majority are a mature and sensible lot, it just take a few black sheeps to mar and tarnish that beatiful image. There are still a minority who are still lacking on the being socially responsible and taking accountability for their own action.

Well, let's hope the world can become a better place to live in. ",)

Pictures Paint a Thousands Words

2006-03-18T08:23:00.000+08:00

Here are some of the pics that I have promised to upload. Erm... i know its a lil bit delayed... but here it is!!

HoneyMoon in Phuket

@ Cactus Garen, Singapore Changi Airport

In the Cabin

@ Phuket Town

@ Karon Beach

Nite @ Karon

Cruise Ride

Sun, Sea Breeze, Blue Sky & BD

@ James Bond Island

Thank you Biggg Dorg

2006-02-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Thank god I found you
the one and only one
whom I know will love me me with all you've got
whom i know will care for me till we grow old
whom i know its going to be forever and ever

I'm really grateful
to exchange vow with you
to be husband and wife
to be together for the rest of our life

With all your heart and soul
till the very day we die
will you shower all your loving tender care on me

Blissful & Lovely
Passionate & Tender

Devoted & Affectionate
Doting & Romantic

Loving & Adoring
Caring & Sensitive

Selfless & Magnanimous
Thoughtful & Considerate

So much more that no words can describe

You've everything that everyone would have yearn for
Everything that I never dream I would be bestowed with

Together with small dorg

And many tiny dorgs to come

United and strong, together we will stay

I'm really lucky
Really really blessed

Thank you Biggg Dorg
Truely, Sincerely, Wholeheartedly from my heart
Thank you

With you

Medium dorg is forever protected

Forever fortunate and beloved.

Sometimes Men Just Don't Get It

2005-11-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

As above, literally. Sometimes men just don't get it, understand it and feel it.

~Why do girls need a big enough waredrobe? (Why cant u clear or dump away some of your clothes and stuff)

~Why do girls need a dressing table? (Why do u need so many stuffs?? Already told you to throw some away!!)

~Why girls have tonnes and mountains of clothes? (There are huge heaps of clothes, but I keep hearing you commenting you've no clothes, then keep buying and buying, don't understand you girls. Already ask you to clear, pack away and throw away some already!! )

~Why girls have tonnes of shoes? (You only have a pair of feet)

~Why girls have tonnes of toiletries? (You only have 1 face, a pair of eyes, a mouth and a nose)

~Why some girls prefer a squating toilet seat vs squating one?

(Why so troublesome? You think u r a princess ah?)

~Why do girls keep saying men don't understand? Why cant girls just explain till men understand? (Cos no matter how u explain, how long u explain, the result will still be the same "I still don't get you!" So conclusion: Why waste the effort?? Will only further aggraavate the situation and self being of both parties)

Just hope men can be a lil more empathetic sometimes. Sigh... imagine the feeling of moving over to somewhere which is outside of one's own terriority, somewhere completely new and unfamilar. The once carefree and nonchalent spirit is now suddenly trap with the feeling of anxiety and somewhat helplessness, the worrying and uneasy feeling, the fear of the possibility of the "middleperson" being caught in the middle, don't know what to expect and probably how to react. There are just so many many many things that are quite impossible to pen it down in writing. The mix and jumbled feeling... Argh... Think im simply not having a free and serene mind to pen it down now. I gotta admit I'm kinda lost here. And frustrated!! Please save me!!

Sobz...

5 more days...Its so fast !!

2005-11-06T10:16:00.000+08:00

Yes, 5 more days to go!! In just another wink of my eyes, I will be moving on to another beautiful chapter of my life, sharing my life with someone whom I know will genuinely care and showers his love on me.

The past few days and weeks have been really tiring and super duper busy. There seems to be so much things to be done and so little time available. But luckily, most things have been done and is on schedule. Phew! Meanwhile, gotta tie up the loose ends and finish up with the remaining chores real fast.

Many thanks to my great bunch of colleagues, who threw a special bachelorette party for me. Its been a wild and fun night. I really enjoyed myself, and i believe all who attended did as well. Was really touched by all their kind words and gesture, and their amazing effort in such a short span of time. P.S.: I really like the veil, its beautiful and sweet, and holds a special meaning to it whenever i look at it now. THANK YOU TO ALL MY BEAUTIFUL, WONDERFUL, SWEET AND LOVING COLLEAGUES. I LUV U ALL!!

Before i pen off, a lil promise =) . I will upload and share some of my wedding pics with you people as soon as i can get hold of them.

Luv you all. Hugs...

2005-10-07T13:57:00.000+08:00

Most might have probably been shocked and stunned by it, but nonetheless I'm really appreciative and moved by all the well wishes I've received. I really wanna say a big thank you to all of you, u guys and gals have been a really wonderful bunch of pals and colleagues, I'm really really touched...

I must say that I'm really happy to have the support of my family, my mom (much to my surprised, thank you mom), my grandma, my aunties and uncles.

I must say that I'm blessed to have a supportive boss, who is willing to take time off her super duper hectic schedule and extend her help.

I must say that I'm fortunate to have such wonderful and caring friends and colleagues, who extend their sincere concern and well wishes and help.

THANK YOU ALL, I'M REALLY THANKFUL, LUCKY, BLESSED TO HAVE KNOWN ALL OF YOU PEOPLE!

Lovely Sweet Moment

2005-10-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm back. Its been a long while since i last wrote an entry. Had apparently forgotten my ID and Password, took me donkey years to really sit down and retrieve back my password ( I know I'm just plain lazy).

Have been pretty busy lately. Before i ramble on, here's some pics taken during my Birthday =)

The Art of Compromise

2005-08-08T19:28:00.000+08:00

Many people mistake the act of compromise as selling-out or giving in. Compromise to them means giving up something. In actuality if you stay true to the real definition of compromise you will gain a relationship free of petty battles. You will learn how to co-exist in a loving and appreciative way.

So, what does compromise actually mean? According to Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary it means, "A settlement...by mutual consent reached by concession on both sides..." The key words here are mutual consent. It can't be a true compromise if one partner doesn't feel it is mutual. The act of compromise by definition indicates that both partners take an active role in finding a solution.

Compromise is a way of helping each other find a solution that benefits both people. When you start looking at solutions to your problems this way you can't help but gain a happier relationship, which in turn creates a happier you!

Does it really exist?

2005-07-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

I'm usually not a pessimist. But somehow, something has been on my mind recently. Something which i thought its hard to believe.

Call me a cynic, but somehow, i always have the tendency to contemplate on the sincerity and genuinity when a guy expresses he truthfully loves a girl wholeheartedly upon meeting up on their first date. Much as I would like to believe there is such wonderful phenomenon "Love at first Sight" and may even fanaticised about it, but at the end of the day, the sceptical, dubious, disbeliving (whatever or however its being phrase) feeling will slowly creep to you, making you wonder. Is there really such a thing? Does it really exist? Am I just being such a naive fool? And the list of doubts and uncertainty goes on...

Could it be because the terrible feeling of being afraid to be hurt or deceived that surpass the courage to believe and have faith in the love confession and accept it as true?

Well, life is ever changing and is filled with the unexpected. Time that has passed will never turn back again. Sometime, certain matter may requires one to take the risk. Watever it is or however it would turn out, no one would be able to provide a 100% spot on presumption. Probably certain events are really fated and predestined...

Finally some improvement!!

2005-05-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy, happy that I can finally do a proper push up and that i can do crunches. All thanks to the aerobics classes at Amore. 3 cheers for them and myself !! (Really takes some self determination and discipline to attend lesson after a tiring day at work and considering that I travel from the west to the east to attend lesson on some weekends too!!)

Still remember the first lesson that i attended "New Body"...Argh.. first time doing proper crunches and just after 1 crunch, my stomach muscles start to twinge and wrench. I couldnt move ... I practically lie flat hoping that the pain would subside and stop. Now, about a couple of classes, I can proudly say that my abs muscles have strengthen and I can endure through a couple more "proper"crunches before i collapse into lying flat on my back, starring into the studio ceiling. Same goes for push up. I'm so so happy. All thanks to those light weight lifting and endurance exercise, helping to boost my arms' strength. Considering the fact that I cant do even half a proper crunch and push up back in the old days (even during school time) , this is a vast improvement for me.

Am persevering & keep it going!!

Tired!!

2005-05-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

I'm almost deadbeat now. First thing that i did when i got home was to lie down on my bed.

Went for KB and NB today at Cineleisure. Quite "xiong" for a first timer. And my stomach muscles got cramped when i was doing the crunches during the NB class.

But nonetheless, i like the KB and NB class. Will definitely go for it again next week!!

Its fun, Its relaxing, Its Addictive!!

2005-05-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

Attended the hip hop and stretch fit class today @ bugis village. Initially was a bit worried of going to classes alone (its my first time goin to Amore), BUT i realise that my worries are no worries at all. Lessons are enjoyable and interesting. Although I'm having 2 left feets at the hip hop class, having problems with my coordination, its still a fun-filled class.

The stretch fit class starts right after the hip hop class. Initially i still thought i attended the wrong class ( was quite blur, so please pardon a first timer). The stretching workout, together with the soothing music somehow gave me a sense of serenity. My mind feels more relax and a feeling of calmness and peace set into me.

Have enrolled for the kickoxing and new body class @ Cineleisure tomorrow. Will update on my progress.

PS: Think I'm starting to get addicted to their classes...

2005-05-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

Day 1 @ Changi Airport

2005-05-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

IIRC 4th Day @ BKK

Premier of ~FäT§ TërmíñaTór~

2005-05-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

Finally gotten myself to sign up for Amore. I'm really in need of some exercise, my fitness level is on the decline and I am feeling tat unhealthy. Took the unlimited package for 3 months, total damage $389 (inclusive of registration fee). Argh..... heart pain, considering the amount of Vit M I consumed lately on big ticket items ~ BKK Shopping Trip, Escada Magnectic Beat (lovely fragrance) ~ A push for me to attend classess. Yeah!! Time to tone up myself and fight the flabs!

Was planning to attend at least 3 classes per week, so as not to put my unlimited package to waste and of cos ultimately to burn off calories. Kickboxing here i come!!

Am browsing though their location and realise they dont have any in the West area... Hmm..was wondering y *-) ... Its abit tat inconvenience for Westerners like myself and many others...Gee wonder if they have some kinda suggestion box or pamphlets to fill in...

So now its the starting of a fat blasting war... Hopefully, Optimistically, and with the much needed determination. ~In aniticipation of a whole new me~

§ Hömé ŠwëeT Hömê §

2005-05-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

Finally back... back at my Land of Birth. Its been 4 days but I'm some what still in a daze. Dreamy, sluggish, drifting in a world of my own...

Wish that I'm still in BKK, leading a some what bummer lifestyle *~Breakfast -> Shop till drop / Swimming -> Dinner/Snack -> Long bathe -> Loot Recollection -> HBO -> Zzzzzz ~* - its a futile, unproductive, idle to some, but its definitely great to take a break away from the Monotonous + Cyclic + Dreary working routine. Its evident from the comment I've received from my colleagues, that I'm looking more radiant :P

But one thing for sure is that its gonna take some time for me to regain to my fairer self. Just a day of walking under the hot blazing BKK's sun and it turn me into a dark angel. Truely evident and obvious. Looking at my Day 1 pics and subsequent pics tells it all. (Shall post the pics later)

My loots are still lying around in my bedroom. Too lazy to pack and sort them out, moreover some of it requires stitching ~ a test of my needlework skill ~ Feeling a little lethargic, so shall leave it to a later slot for now.

Sumptuous Buffet Breakfast @ First Hotel, BKK

2005-05-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

*~Its Lip Smacking, its Delicious, its Appetizing...Yummy~*

2005-04-26T19:24:00.000+08:00

Finally gotten down to setting up my own blog, the sheer excitment of coming up with blog name, choosing the template, and finally writing my first post. Actually, its quite tiring to come up with interesting and catchy blog name. Probably my brain isnt working today (or maybe it hasnt been working all these while, Or probably i do not even have a functional one to start with??).

Been down with diarrhoea and my tummy is aching like hell. Only plus point would most probably be the to and fro trip to the loo - " As a mild form of exercise ". Alright, i know its kinda lame, but what to do, im kinda crappy recently.

Off Topic: Talking about"the word "diarrhoea", I always cant seem to get the spelling right. Most of the time, i would rely on my MS Words spell check.

Kinda drag going to work, to be a pacifier, to be a counsellor, to be a rage extinguisher and the list goes on. Probably what i needed is a much awaited and yearned for trip, to recharge and renergised myself. Hanging on and looking forward to Friday!! Heading down to BKK - Shopping shopping and more shopping. I'm a believer of retail therapy.